day 52

1/4 mile

I was told the insoles have a "break-in" period of up to 2 weeks. I'm kind of impatient about getting back into the walking. This is where I realize, it doesn't matter how frustrated I get with my situation.. It's going to take time to get better.

The truth of the matter. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that the motivation will disappear.

day 51

1/2 mile

I'm having difficulty finding what it takes to do what I was doing before I got ill.

I realized that I haven't done a lot of things in life, because I am afraid of failing. This is a debilitating fear. Like I'm stuck in a corner..unable to move at all. I also realized, that with this, the only way I fail, is if I stop completely. I cannot fail if I'm still walking. That kind of makes it easier.

bitch. I'm going to start taking chances.

day 50

1/2 mile walked.

I have a lot to write, but I'm not going to do it now. I don't really feel like it.