Thursday, April 21, 2011

day 52

1/4 mile

I was told the insoles have a "break-in" period of up to 2 weeks. I'm kind of impatient about getting back into the walking. This is where I realize, it doesn't matter how frustrated I get with my situation.. It's going to take time to get better.

The truth of the matter. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that the motivation will disappear.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

day 51

1/2 mile

I'm having difficulty finding what it takes to do what I was doing before I got ill.

I realized that I haven't done a lot of things in life, because I am afraid of failing. This is a debilitating fear. Like I'm stuck in a corner..unable to move at all. I also realized, that with this, the only way I fail, is if I stop completely. I cannot fail if I'm still walking. That kind of makes it easier.

bitch. I'm going to start taking chances.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

day 50

1/2 mile walked.

I have a lot to write, but I'm not going to do it now. I don't really feel like it.